Courage is about something inner will which antonym to fear. Even though, both can give some force to living creatures to do something, but when both are combined; a story begin. It's not about how I like him and he dump me. It's about how I am fear to fall in love; and having guts back to find true love; even I have to fall again. For all things happened in my life; none can makes me fear but only love successfully put itself on my fear top-list.
Previously, I have two kind of experiences; receiving love and rewarding love. And both failed and feared me. And totally poisoning me into someone who lost interest to guys; only interested in being nice and leave them wickedly. Even my mom have no ideas how to get rid off all those my witty ideas. Sorry ma...
This gus is outrageously got my number, try to have good punk call. And yes, he succeed. But there's another things. He prove that I am wrong for the whole time being; and he's correcting my principle.
The principle of forgiving the past and enjoy our current moment fullest as we can as long not over the Allah's guidance.
He do spend lots of time with me; most of it are the wrong time. But I managed to conquer one of my weaknesses by being still on my decision to have some time division as to prevent my working time being disturbed. This was not being able to be managed by me, and yet can after he came into my life.
Another things he made me realize that is;
It's not about how rich you are with money; it's about how you enrich your live with happiness.
I'm not so sure how rich or poor he is, coz' I never into that part whenever he said we wants to be my friends. There fore, neither prince nor pauper will make into a good man. It's about knowledge that you have and mould you into true man. And as far I can see, he is not. Thanks for not. I am free now to fly again.
Another things I realize too is;
You can never be happy by depending others to makes you happy; but you still can happy without others.
Kind of tongue- split words, but it's true. Which made me realize, I supposed to seek happiness and success by myself not depending to guys to "Please!!! Make me happy with you....". Thanks to him; he's the first guy I'm not pleasing as I were last time.
So, dear Hisyamuddin Adam,
If you're suddenly jump into this page, I would like to tell you, thanks for came into my life. I am happy to meet you in the air of telecommunication. Although it's all the time, we couldn't trust each other, but that's what is supposed to be. We couldn't trust not because we're lying to each other but it's just we're totally stranger in this world. Apart from then, I'm hoping none from you except honest, but you lied right? It's ok, and I'm not angry because I knew it already and I'm not being fooled by you actually. I just waiting you to tell me the truth.
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