Straits Quay-Penang Island

Actually I on my way to search 1Tera External Hard Disk which in range MYR 200-300. So one of my friends, told me that there is a PC fair at Straits Quay in Penang Island. So I went there. Unfortunately, the price for the hard disk still MYR300 and above. So, in the beginning, it's kind of frustrated, driving far away, but couldn't get the external hard disk. So I walked down alone, and I saw a sign board written "Lighthouse". So I followed the sign and what I found is more than the price of the hard disk at the convention.
Tadaaa!!!

This is truly such a pleasant place, where you can seat calmly; reading books, with cup of coffee, surrounded by boats at its' dock, leaded by one and the only one lighthouse. Once I stepped my foots here, unconsciously all my bad weekdays, all the stressfulness, hectic workloads, dull and tiredness which folding me for the whole weeks, suddenly seems gone together with the sea breeze. I am alone, supposed to be awkward walking there alone without partner or friends or family, but that's is totally contrary when I faced this place where, my heart says,

"This is the place where I belongs"  

Okie dokie, I shall show you some more.Hehehe....

Some stuff as to remember? of course..

lalalalalalala......hehehehe.....

The Scipt

The Script

This band is one of my favorite. They're one of the Irish Band. Their songs like Breakeven, The Man Who Can't Be Moved, and Nothing; really stunned my heart to listen again and again. It feels that it's raining outside, and the songs is tuned, comforter is clinging around, with cup of coffee on round table, near the window,looking outside,all the drops as the glass, while the marigold flower freshly blossom. Huwaaa....now, that's what i felt (maybe his voice, plus the way he's singing in honest way)

The Man Who Can't Be Moved:

Breakeven:

Nothing:

We Cry:

Super Delicate Lyrics - Hey! Say! Jump

Romaji:
Aa~ boku ni wa kimi ni shika miserarenai kao ga aru?

Hito no mae de wa kuuki wo yonde
Tsukuri warai wo tsuzuketeru
Motto ganbare to iwaretara
Sunao ni unazui tari mo suru

Kodomo no koro wa shiranakatta
Jibun ga konna ni okubyou da nante
Nakitai yo, nakenai yo
Kono mune ga harisake sou sa~~

Kimi ni shika miserarenai kao ga aru
Kimi ni shika miserarenai kao ga aru
Daijoubu to waratte kureta
Aa~ boku ni wa kimi ni shika miserarenai kao ga aru

Otona ni naru to gakushuu wo shite
Guuzen nanka ni tayoranai
Dakedo moshikashitara sore wa
Kiseki dattari shinai darou ka

Fushigi na chikara ga waitekuru
Kimi ga yuuki wo kuretanda ne
Aishiteru, aishiterun da
Kono mune ga harisake sou sa~~

Kimi ni shika miserarenai kao ga aru
Boku ni shika miserarenai kao ga aru?
Itsumade mo itsumade mo
Te wo tsunaide ita

Aa~ boku ni wa kimi ni shika miserarenai kao ga aru

Kodomo no koro wa shiranakatta
Jibun ga konna ni okubyou da nante
Nakitai yo, nakenai yo
Kono mune ga harisake sou sa~~

Kimi ni shika miserarenai kao ga aru
Kimi ni shika miserarenai kao ga aru
Daijoubu to waratte kureta
Aa~ boku ni wa kimi ni shika miserarenai kao ga aru


Kanji:
ああ　僕には　君にしか見せられない顔がある？
他人（ひと）の前では空気を読んで
作り笑いを続けてる
もっと頑張れと言われたら
素直に頷いたりもする
子供の頃は知らなかった
自分がこんなに臆病だなんて
泣きたいよ　泣けないよ
この胸が　張り裂けそうさ
君にしか見せられない顔がある
君にしか見せられない顔がある
大丈夫と笑ってくれた
ああ　僕には　君にしか見せられない顔がある
大人になると学習をして
偶然なんかに頼らない
だけど　もしかしたら　それは
奇跡だったりしないだろうか
不思議な力が湧いてくる
君が勇気をくれたんだね
愛してる　愛してるんだ
この胸が　張り裂けそうさ
君にしか見せられない顔がある
僕にしか見せられない顔がある？
いつまでもいつまでも
手を繋いでいた
ああ　僕には　君にしか見せられない顔がある
子供の頃は知らなかった
自分がこんなに臆病だなんて
泣きたいよ　泣けないよ
この胸が　張り裂けそうさ
君にしか見せられない顔がある
君にしか見せられない顔がある
大丈夫と笑ってくれた
ああ　僕には　君にしか見せられない顔がある

Translation:

Aa~ for me there's a face that i show only to you

in front of people, I discern the atmosphere
I fake a smile, and keep it on
if someone told me to try harder
i'll nod honestly

when i was a child, i didn't know
that i was such a coward
i wanted to cry,but i couldn't
my chest feels like tearing apart

there's a face that i show only to you
there's a face that i show only to you
you were smilling, said to me "it's OK"
Aa~ for me there's a face that i show only to you

when i'm became an adult, i realized
that we can't rely on a "luck"
but isn't there a possibility that
this luck was actually a miracle?

the power of miracle excites me
you have give me a courage haven't you?
i love you, i love you
my chest feels like tearing apart

there's a face that i show only to you
is there also a face you show only to me?
forever, forever
I'll hold your hand

Aa~ for me there's a face that i show only to you

when i was a child, i didn't know
that i was such a coward
i wanted to cry,but i couldn't
my chest feels like tearing apart

there's a face that i show only to you
there's a face that i show only to you
you were smilling, said to me "it's OK"
Aa~ for me there's a face that i show only to you

Source:

http://yozora-miage.livejournal.com/4992.html

http://www.google.com.my/url?sa=t&rct=j&q=super+delicate+kanji&source=web&cd=2&ved=0CCgQFjAB&url=http%3A%2F%2Fairihsj.livejournal.com%2F2646.html&ei=RltGT_XdPMWtiQes77GSDg&usg=AFQjCNFeEfqd7XeUugZ6aKdaBcOvrUnTeQ&cad=rja

http://www.google.com.my/url?sa=t&rct=j&q=super+delicate+romaji&source=web&cd=1&ved=0CCIQFjAA&url=http%3A%2F%2Fhey-say.livejournal.com%2F2799856.html&ei=XVtGT7amNdSjiQfg5ZGPDg&usg=AFQjCNFKznY7kby1fNshP7G3HBNtoS3JlQ&cad=rja

Middle of Nowhere

Wondering for a second,
Hushing for a minute,
Thinking for an hour,
and numb,
for the whole day.

i wish i could understand,
i wish i could smile back in honest way,
i wish i could laugh as fullest as i can,
i wish i can wake up tomorrow with pure peaceful mind

but,
as leaves obey the Newton's Law,
as lamp alive as Ohm's Law lamp up,
as song synchronize his soul with Heinz' Law,
as sea wave haunted by Gravity's Law,

so do i,
still couldn't understand,
still faking the smile,
still halfheartedly laughing with others,
and still,
scared to the sun rise.

why my heart become so trembling,
why my wish still unprompted,
why my hand naked and lonely,
why my eyes slowly bursting,

my life just like an opera,
from one cast to another cast,
same body, different face,
same gesture, different act,
same fate,  different guys,
same heart, different places,
same wounds, different time.

it is not that i really love him,
it is just i want to give another chance to him to know me better,
and for me for being able to cure my hearts,
lighten up back my life,
put another sheets of stories into my life,
inspirational to others as bright future of love might appears if you have faith.

but now,
all just like diminish,
crash into dust,
burn into ashes,
and i am still
numb
for unknown length of time,
in middle of nowhere.

Another not-really-love story..

    There's a guy again. Hisyamuddin Adam.  Maybe true maybe not.  And I know he's kind of not exists in this universe. No facebook account, no google history. If I tell people about him, monstrous of them will tell me to not listen, and it's dangerous. But life is not about making right things all the time; it  about how you have courage to find the right things for you. Yes; it' courage.

    Courage is about something inner will which antonym to fear. Even though, both can give some force to living creatures to do something, but when both are combined; a story begin. It's not about how I like him and he dump me. It's about how I am fear to fall in love; and having guts back to find true love; even I have to fall again. For all things happened in my life; none can makes me fear  but only love successfully put itself on my fear top-list.

    Previously, I have two kind of experiences; receiving love and rewarding love. And both failed and feared  me. And  totally poisoning me into someone who lost interest to guys; only interested in being nice and leave them wickedly. Even my mom have no ideas how to get rid off all those my witty ideas. Sorry ma...

    This gus is outrageously got my number, try to have good punk call. And yes, he succeed. But there's another things. He prove that I am wrong for the whole time being; and he's correcting my principle.  

The principle of forgiving the past and enjoy our current moment fullest as we can as long not over the Allah's guidance.

    He do spend lots of time with me; most of it are the wrong time. But I managed to conquer one of my weaknesses by being still on my decision to have some time division as to prevent my working time being disturbed. This was not being able to be managed by me, and yet can after he came into my life.

Another things he made me realize that is;

It's not about how rich you are with money; it's about how you enrich your live with happiness.

    I'm not so sure how rich or poor he is, coz' I never into that part whenever he said we wants to be my friends. There fore, neither prince nor pauper will make into a good man. It's about knowledge that you have and mould you into true man. And as far I can see, he is not. Thanks for not. I am free now to fly again.

Another things I realize too is;

You can never be happy by depending others to makes you happy; but you still can happy without others.

Kind of tongue- split words, but it's true. Which made me realize, I supposed to seek happiness and success by myself not depending to guys to "Please!!! Make me happy with you....". Thanks to him; he's the first guy I'm not pleasing as I were last time.

So, dear Hisyamuddin Adam,

     If you're suddenly jump into this page, I would like to tell you, thanks for came into my life. I am happy to meet you in the air of telecommunication. Although it's all the time, we couldn't trust each other, but that's what is supposed to be. We couldn't trust not because we're lying to each other but it's just we're totally stranger in this world. Apart from then, I'm hoping none from you except honest, but you lied right? It's ok, and I'm not angry because I knew it already and I'm not being fooled by you actually. I just waiting you to tell me the truth.

Mirror

Stepped into the mirror,
unknown the future reborn
maybe
soul extinction
leaving all the leaves in wood behind
facing  the storm which boom infront
glance to right,
glance to left
but none are destined
so front is the one
light nor dark up waiting
still the foot-non-head-stopping
under the well of heart
rainbows inside
not all are beauty
but not all are ugly
none both can kills too
times just like the wave in the sea,
lifes is just wish it to be
as wave alive,
so do the air
so do the warmth
so do the rainbow
so do the well
so do the storm
so do the wood
so do the mirror

so do-
we.